The Anti Fairy Tale

Once upon a time there lived a beautiful princess and her not so beautiful sister. Like any sisters they got along quite swimingly some days, and not so much others. Unlike many princesses you hear about, neither their mother or father were dead, but rather they simply lived in opposite ends of the castle. You see, the King and Queen couldn't stand to be around each other.

In the next kingdom over, there lived a handsome prince. He grew up being best friends with the not so beautiful princess. They did everything together. Much to the chagrin of her mother, for playing with princes often includes not so lady like things, such as playing in the mud and having sword fights with sticks. However, the not so beautiful princess didn't care, for the prince was her best and only friend.

As they tend to do, when the princesses got older, they began to be drawn to people of the opposite gender persuasion. Now, the prince and the not so beautiful princess (mind you, she was not ugly, just not as beautiful as her sister), were perfectly compatable in every way. The princess recognized this as did all of her courtiers. Everyone, including the King and Queen just knew that the 2 of them would one day be wed.

But no! The prince, operating as most princes do, didn't care to see the life that he could have with the not so beautiful princess. So he ended up marrying the beautiful princess. Her sister was devastated. She knew there would be no one else who would so perfectly compliment who she was.

Oh, and the king and queen split up.

And the family dog died.

And eventually the prince grew to regret his choice. Still not recognizing the compatibility between him and Not So Beautiful. But he did realize how incompatible Beautiful and he were. So they also split. And the prince spent the rest of his days in misery chasing down an ideal that was absurd and could never exist.

Not So Beautiful went on to marry, but carried always in her heart the wounds of rejection from the prince.

Beautiful was just a bad word.

The end.



And that my friends is probably closer to reality than any other fairy tale you will encounter.

I don't quite have a title for this...

So, there are several reasons posting here hasn't occured very frequently lately. One being that I don't have constant access to a computer. Two being that many of my thoughts are still in process mode.

God is showing me alot lately. Over the past couple days I've realized how much He's changed in me even from last year. Things that used to make or break my day, don't have so strong an effect on me anymore. And that's a good thing. I've been able to have some pretty  hard conversations, and come out of them unscathed. I've faced things I didn't want to face, and grown. I've faced people I don't like and been able to love them. And this is all the past few weeks. Crazy, huh?

I don't say any of this to put myself on any kind of a pedastal... Its just unfathomable to me how much has happened lately.

It would appear that God is working on bringing about the fulfillment of one of my dreams for my city. Which is more exciting than I can possibly begin to tell you! More on that to follow when the details become more solidified. Can't wait to get involved though!

Anyhows. That's the short update on schtuff.
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Resolve: Noble Aim Goes On and On

The final installation of the Yearbook EP has been released! Lyrics below:

Noble Aim
Chances are we are the same
Against the odds, against the grain
We lean like gardends toward light
But we wait like evening for night
Don't we?

Chances are we are alike
Against what better judgement writes
We ache like children for love
For a purpose worthy of
Such a noble aim
Such a noble aim
Such a noble aim as love

Chances are we bruise the same
A family tree desperate for rain
A thirst only deserts know best
A hurt so at home in our chests
Call it stubbornness or bravery
To let our branches continue to reach
With such a noble aim
With such a noble aim
With such a noble aim as love

Every broken branch and loosened leaf
That we've grown to ignore
Is now part of something greater than before
Every nest that rests upon our limbs
Seeking shelter from the storms
Is a purpose worth being broken for

Chances are we are the same
Against all odds against the grain
We lean like gardes toward light
We reach with all of our might
For such a noble aim as love


Goes On and On
Every day you wake
Evermore aware
Than you ever were before
The smallest sound
Is ringing in your ears
Like a grand piano
Slowly falling down a million stairs
But the sound it makes
Are the growing pains of repair

And it goes on and on
It goes on and on

'Til the day you wake up
Miles from here
Where all of a sudden
Dissonance disappears

And like a wrecking ball in reverse
Every wrong will be made right
What was adamant, even permanent
Will have a change of heart and mind
In your disbelief you'll clear your eyes
As if you're seeing light
For the very first time

It goes on and on
It goes on and on


Resolve
Generations wait
Like the river sways
For a father's blood
For a mother's love

Though not the promised land
Nor any perfect plan
Along our neutral path
There was a single lowered branch

What was flawless canvass-white
What was kindness in our eyes
Is now a blemished masterpiece
An astigmatism life
But let's cut right to the chase
To when the best of us was on display

Before we tipped the scale from confidence to doubt
I would hold you now if only I knew how

Concentration breaks
Under frivolous weight
If the right words exist
May they find our lips

Let's stay the course
And let the tension make us new
I don't know if it's virtue
I don't know if it's just dumb luck
Would it matter if it was?
What if we welcomed change in
Or opened up just enough
To let it begin

The doors will open wide for you
It was said just like it was the truth
If we walk right through

Poison and Wine

Haven't posted in a while. Current favorite song is "Poison and Wine" by The Civil Wars.

Apartment life is good. I pretty much love it actually. My heart still resides in St. Louis.

To end this very short blog entry, I pose a question: If Christ is the greatest thing we have in common, why is it He rarely comes up in conversation?

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My Playlist for the Bus (In Part)

As played on shuffle...
1. My Evil Plan to Save the World by Five Iron Frezy
2. Sway by Dean Martin
3. Paper Planes by M.I.A.
4. All This to Say by Sleeping at Last
5. Breathe (2 a.m.) by Anna Nalick
6. There Goes the Fear by Doves
7. Sigh No More by Mumford & Sons
8. Hey Jude by Joe Anderson (Across the Universe)
9. Studying Politics by Emery
10. Burn the Fleet by Thrice
11. Redeem by The Wedding
12. Awake My Soul by Mumford & Sons
13. Please Speak Well of Me by The Weepies
14. Let it Rain by Michael W. Smith
15. God is Enough by Lecrae
16. Page 28 by Sleeping at Last
17. The Silence by Mayday Parade
18. Good Morning Life by Dean Martin
19. Then by Brad Paisley
20. Thoughts of a Dying Atheist by Muse
etc. etc.

Went to QT today. Its basically like Sheetz. Across the parking lot was this wonderful family of giraffes :)

Monopoly

This is how my free time has been spent the past few evenings. Me, Jule and whoever will play with us. As you can see, last night's game didnt go so well for me. But it was still really fun.
I have a pretty slow day today. P. Bon is out of the office. He left me with a few things to do, but not much. Right now I'm waiting outside for a lady to come pick up some hot dogs and buns for an event we're helping with tomorrow morning.
Its hard to believe that I only have a few days left here. I am looking forward to being home though. See yall soon :)
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