Do You Want a Revolution?

I feel as though I have much in thought, but the bridge between my ideas and my words hasn't quite been completed.

As you all know it has been an interesting year for me. As I'm waking up from my funk, I've been looking around me to see that the vast majority of those whom I care deeply about have fallen into their own funks. And seeing how they are approaching and dealing with their issues has broken my heart. I don't see them turning to Jesus, but to other things and people for the answers to their questions and hurts. Or they are denying and avoiding them all together. Burying them underneath a smile or activity. But they're still hurting. I see it in their eyes.

This is not tolerable for me. Now, when I say that, you may be a little put off and wonder who I am to make such a statement. But I don't deal with the devil. I don't tolerate him taking and gaining victory in the lives of those precious to me. Its completely unacceptable. Its difficult because often times I feel so helpless to do anything about it. I pray my brains out... and I know its the most powerful thing, but I sometimes just wish I could do something. On the other side of it, I know if I get involved in the situations I am observing with out the sanctioning and guidance of God, I will without a doubt, screw it up even further.

So I pray.

I was talking to a friend tonight over coffee and I shared with him something someone said to me that I just can't get out of my head any time I start to worry about my friends and family. I had been kind of venting to someone one day about how I was frustrated about feeling helpless. And the basic message of what she told me was this; we know, because we are told, that prayer is the most powerful thing we can do for people. But, as stated before, it often doesn't feel like you're actually doing much. This is because we tend to forget how big the God-factor is in people's lives. We need to remember that He has His soveriegn hand in everything and so therefore talking to the One who is in control of everything is the most active thing we can do. And, let me tell you, I can't shake that concept from me.

Its so cool lately too. Because amidst all of the discouragement of seeing people struggle, this week I was lifted up by the fact that one of the people I have been concerned about has finally started to make a turn around! I don't talk to him often, but when I have for a few months lately.. well he's been going through a really hard time. But I talked to him a few days ago and it was just so amazing to hear him talk about what God is doing in him again!

I did have a realization the other day (mostly random side track from previously discussed topics in this entry). I realized that, if all works out as I would like, I will be able to go to St. Louis 3 times this next year! I want to go in March if the church is able to go. Then my brother is graduating from the intern program there in May. And then after internship is over in the summer I want to go for a month as a resident missionary. Its super inexpensive to do and well, you all know that my heart lives there.

More locally, I've been hitting a level of frustration with where things are at here. Don't get me wrong, I love everything that God is doing... I just wish that people would tune into it more than they seem to be doing. I wish I could/would tune into it more. I feel like I'm missing so much of what He wants to do... I want to see Cornerstone revolutionized. I want to see every person there willing, ready and serving in God's callings for them. Daily. I want to see a unified force come out of Cornerstone that will spread the revolution from just our church to the community of Medina. All of it. All social demographics of it. Reaching out to and beyond the city limits. I want to see people wake up. And I feel like God is wanting to do something so incredible here. And as much as I desperately want to be in St. Louis, I don't feel right about leaving here until I begin to see the fruition of what He has shown me for this place.

So much for not being able to put my thoughts into words. I think it often ends up that way for me. And this is all just part of what's going on in my head right now.

Me off.